Today, I'm participating in a writing prompt, and I hope you will participate as well! Today's prompt is: A Letter To My Teenage Self
Life right now seems so confusing and at times unbearable, and you just can’t seem to make sense of it. You want so badly to please everyone around you, yet it’s impossible. Your parents love you so much, but you shut them out because you think they don’t understand, and you turn to people that don’t really care about you. They don’t care about you, not because they are bad people, but because they are teenagers and are just as confused about this time in their lives as you are. Don’t push your parents away, one day they will be your best friends. One day you will know that they have always loved you more than anyone else could, and that they only want what’s best for you.
You are always in so much pain, and while the doctors have assumed you suffer from depression, the truth is you are young, and one of the most compassionate people I know. You hurt for others, you hurt for everyone. All of your friends come to you because you will listen to their problems, but you can’t do anything about them so you bury the pain, and it grows more each day. You don’t understand why the people you care about have to hurt, and why life can be so cruel, but one day it will all make sense. One day you’ll see that being there for them was what you were meant to do. At the same time you have to learn to accept that life is hard, and not try to look for a way to flee the pain. Drugs, alcohol, relationships, cutting…none of that will take away the pain. They only compound the problem because they hurt the people closest to you, which is like a downward spiral for you.
I’d like to tell you to say in school, you love school, and you’re really good at it. If you quit now you will always wonder what your life would have been like. I’d also like to tell you that the guy who works at Burger King and is always flirting with you will one day become your husband. This part is hard because he will also be your ex-husband. While many people may say it’s smart to go in another direction, I will tell you that you should let yourself fall in love with him. He will give you four of the most amazing gifts you will ever receive. I would also encourage you to enjoy the 12 years you spend with him, and try not to take any of those moments for granted. They will stay with you the rest of your life, even if he does not.
As far as all the other guys that tell you they love you, and that they want to spend the rest of their lives with you, their hormonally crazy! Stay away from those losers .
Your biggest flaws can be your greatest character traits if you know how to change your perspective. Don’t allow the compassion you feel for others bring you down. Use it to show those around you how much you care for them. Don’t let your desire for control cause you to do things in a moment of anger that you will always regret. Instead use that focus and determination to get you where you want to go. You don’t have to be perfect, and you are not alone. You are and always will be surrounded by a multitude of people who care about you more than you know.
Stay strong, and don’t lose heart. You’re teenage years will be over in the blink of an eye