So many times in my life I have felt like I don't really know who God is or what He wants for my life. There were times when I searched for signs or would just open my Bible and read whatever page it landed on like it would be just what God had for me that day.
I am learning that when it comes to really knowing God, we cannot do that apart from His word and prayer. Those are really the only two things we need. Even if we lived in a country where we could not attend church regularly and didn't have access to all the latest "bible studies" we would have all we need with our Bibles and prayer.
We know from Genesis 3 that Satan is a liar. What we don't always realize is that he uses our own ignorance to God's word to make us doubt and live in confusion. Our God is a God of order (as you can see when He created the world) not confusion and chaos. When Eve was asked about the garden she added to God's word saying that God said she couldn't even touch the tree. Was her heart bitter because the tree was off limits to eat from? Did she question God's judgment in denying the tree, or did she just take a casual paraphrase approach to God's word? Either way I think Satan had seen enough. He knew he had her. He used her weakness and the desires of her heart (to be like God) to call God's word a lie.
He didn't say you would surely die...
Instead of saying "you know what, actually he did" and quoting scripture like Jesus did when tempted; she thought to herself "maybe you're right, after all the fruit really looks good for food, just like all the other food He provided, it's pleasing to look at, and it's desirable for gaining wisdom." This was the reasoning she may have used to decide her disobedience was justified. Do you see what Satan has done here? He took a tiny chink in her armor of God, and now has her questioning what she knows to be true.
That's how it happens, I have had similar conversations with myself because I didn't fully know or study God's word so I'm left to question what I really believe.
My goal is to spend more time learning God's word. I want to protect myself and my family from the lies. When Satan questions my God I want to be able to give a full account of God's truth and be able to stand strong against the flaming arrows of the enemy.
Will you join me in making a commitment to spend more time in God's word for the purpose of knowing him more? There have been many periods in my life when I read my Bible just because I didn't want to fill guilty or because it's what Christians do. I am ready to get real and KNOW my creator.