After getting tested for the BRCA breast cancer gene mutation I had to wait a grueling 16 days for my results to come back. While that may seem like a quick turnaround it was a long hard road for me. I really struggled with not knowing what my results would be, but I held out hope that I would receive good news.
Then the call came in.
I tested positive for BRCA 1 the same gene mutation that my mom has. As she told me the results I broke down. She was asking me what my plan was and I tried through the tears to tell her that I wanted to go to Duke. She informed me that I could work with my PA to make those choices when I went in for my physical.
The rest of my day was spent telling as many as my family members as I could. I didn't want to announce it on Facebook or social media until I had a chance to reach out to those closest to me. I cried a lot that day. A thousand questions swirled through my mind.
Have I passed this down to my children?
What will I do now?
Will I be able to get referrals for the best doctors?
Would I be able to handle it if I found out that I would need to have surgery to remove my ovaries?
Would I gain weight?
Do I already have cancer?
So yeah, that was my day. I was emotionally exhausted.
I went in for my physical as planned and my doctor was so supportive. She answered all of my questions and worked with me to get the referrals set up. I should hear something this week about Tricare and which doctors I will be able to see.
Duke and UNC Chapel Hill are the two hospitals we are considering and as long as the referrals go through I am hoping to settle with Duke. They have an amazing cancer center and I every doctor I met when I went with my mom was amazing.
After my appointment I was surprisingly at peace. I think a lot of the stress came from not knowing, but once I knew I was able to release the emotions that had been building up and move forward. I'm not saying that I think it will always feel like this because I know I have a long road ahead, but I am so thankful for the knowledge I have now. Having a heads up on this could potentially save my life and keep me from ever having to battle cancer. While ignorance may be bliss, knowledge is power.
Spiritually I feel closer to God than I have in a while. I completely trust him to guide me during this experience. I know that I will make the right choices for my family and myself and I trust that all of this has happened for a reason. I'm not sure what that reason is but I don't need to know. I'm just going to go on trusting and anticipating what He is working in me right now.
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